awaiting dawn ♥

你好吗？

2012-01-20T21:59:00.001-08:00

在回家的路上我们打破沉默，第一次和你聊天。这是11年后第一次的对话，我们之间的对话很客气，很陌生。看了看你，才发现你脸上多了几条皱纹，头发也开始变白了，你老了。你离开的那一幕我还记得很清楚，不知不觉11年过去了。好奇的问你几岁了，原来你已48 了。看了看我自己,今年也20了。

原来时间过的很快，
原来我刻意忘记和你的回忆都没忘记过
原来我不恨你了

想问你这些年你怎么过
想问你这些年你有想起过我们吗
想问你这些年你有后悔离开我们吗
但我却没勇气说出口

希望没有我们的日子你也可以过得很好

Love

2011-12-13T06:12:00.000-08:00

爱，需要勇气

而你给了我最大的勇气

「離•別」

2011-11-08T07:47:00.001-08:00

親愛的各位，
今天就用華文來寫部落格吧！：）
我在想會不會有一群人，不曉得我在寫甚麼然後去翻譯我得文章呢？我還真希望你們會這麼做。抱歉讓你們失望了，因為我更本沒有要寫關於你們的事情。我勸你們還是把力氣和時間花在學業上。要知道總考你沒辦法問問題，沒辦法帶紙條進去考場作弊。

再多幾天就要和大家離別，說真的我的心情很矛盾。某些原因讓我巴不得一切趕快結束，但我卻發現有著許許多多不想分離的理由。原以為我的學院生涯不會遇見意志相投的朋友，更別指望會有好朋友。但很幸運的讓我遇見你們，與你們一塊我擁有了許多回憶。和大家一起瘋瘋癲癲，做傻事還可以自我感覺良好。

你說我怎麼捨得你們？

Halloween 2011

2011-11-05T06:53:00.001-07:00

You know how good it feels when you have a bunch of awesome friends? I know, because I'm lucky to have them! (:

You know how much fun we had together last night? I bet you don't know but I can tell you, more than you could ever imagine! (:

I always have this thought in my mind that someday I want to attend a costume party, then make over, dress up and scare people around. And my dream had came true last night. I went to the Halloween party held at KDU College last night with my brunch of awesome friends. It wasn't that good, food don't taste good, game wasn't that interesting and yet we still had lotsa fun together. Just simply because we rock! (: Out the 4 nominates for best dress award, 3 were from our gang. Our dearest cutie gan even won the FEMALE best dress award. The funniest thing is no one actually knows he is a man. There're some guys tried to approach him and touch him when he was dancing on the stage. Aren't we awesome? After the party, we headed to ss2 MCD to freak everyone out there. You might think we are attention seekers, but who cares? We are just making memories, don't jealous :) And guess what we're sort of success. Everyone kept looking at us as we walked down from the car. All of a sudden, I feel like a superstar.*nah, kidding lah :p*

Anyhow, I think words cannot describe how much fun I had and how grateful I felt to be with this bunch of friends. Appreciate everything I have now ( •ॢ◡-ॢ)-♡

Pictures of bears & veges ♥

Twins of the day :

Susan Seow Bao Cai aka Lady Zorro & Casandra Chuah Xiao Bao Cai aka Dark Angel

Two Chinese vampire:

Niky & Marcus

Tiu Yao Mak aka Prisoner

Kanae aka Belle(Vampire)

Trixie Lim Kai Lan aka Scary Maid & Tiu Yao Mak aka Prisoner

Pinkii Wong Choi Sam aka Geisha

Sexy nurses of the night:

Molly & Sui Jing Jing

Teong Tong Gu aka Butcher aka my lovely Boyf <3

Horny Doctor & his lovely nurses

Lastly, a picture of us visiting SS2 MCD & caught everyone attention on that night :)

2011-10-14T05:42:00.001-07:00

First time posting with my iPhone. I don't know how it works but I hope I got it right. Life been busy with tons of assignments, presentations & exams. Apparently I still have 2 tests, 2 presentations & a group assignment has yet to be complete. You know I really want to blog as often as I can, but i can hardly find time to blog. I wonder is it just me or everyone do not have enough time to spend everyday. Or I'm just not good in discipline myself & don't manage my time properly? :(

不够勇敢

2011-08-31T04:32:00.000-07:00

不知从何开始我害怕夜晚的来临
害怕一个人的夜晚
我仿佛听见自己在和另一个自己说话
放心，我没疯掉。

或许我把自己的情绪压抑得太久
或许我有太多想说却说不出的话
或许我坚强了太久累了想休息了
或许，有着许多的或许。

哭了三个夜晚，请你给我一夜好眠
谢谢。

Perfection doesn't exist

2011-08-25T06:02:00.000-07:00

I do not know who will be reading this but I am pretty sure that you or you all is/are not going to like this. Kindly press on the small red box that containing a 'X' in it, don't said I haven't warned you.

As time goes, I see people around changing. Sometimes, I wonder are they just being more to themselves or they really changed? I don't understand how people can pretending like they are 'nice' yet they are actually not. Acting like they concern about everyone & act like they are some easy-going person indeed they are not. Aren't you all tired of putting a 'mask' on? I really do feel bad for you all, the longer you all pretend the faster you all going to lose yourself. Don't try so hard to please everyone in the world there are always some people that don't like it, just like me. I really do not want to touch about this issue because I do not want myself to see how disgusting people are and how do I react after I get know of all the ugly fact. To be honest, I can never pretend that I am okay with it indeed I actually get annoyed.

Seriously, when people are willing to put in trust on you please appreciate them. They are taking a high risk of being hurt and yet they let you in, do not take people for granted. Do not blame anyone if someday they chose to leave you, you asked for it. Honestly speaking, there is no such thing that people cannot live without you in this world, so do not overestimate yourself. I am very sorry to say that, some of you are losing trust from me and I really need to move on to avoid from being hurt.

I am not being realistic but it's human nature to protect themselves.

2011-08-20T08:24:00.000-07:00

Picture of myself when I was still braces-free.

Looking at all the picture I took without braces on,

seriously made me feel like taking off my braces now.

I don't know how to smile naturally, nicely with braces.

2 years, I cannot wait to take this off.

Bittersweetly, I started to miss my 'self-think-very-cute-tiger-teeth'.

Smiling with braces. Baby looks retard :D

Now you compare the picture of me smiling without braces and braces on.

I bet you see the differences, and now I pray hard that I can get rid of this thing before my 21st birthday.

I know it's still very early to think of it, but I really don't want to ruin my 21st birthday with braces on. Ahh,crap. I don't know what to write anymore and I shall start doing my assignments now. Promise you, I will be back more often.

经一事，长一智

2011-08-12T08:48:00.000-07:00

I think I should update more often, not for anyone but for myself.

When you're a little girl, the most you really ever worry about is whether or not your friend will still want to be you be your friend, even if you don't have chicken drumet to share with them during break time.

when you grow up,you worry about so much more then you really need to worry about, without realizing it.

Define BestFriend for me

Does that means someone that will always be by your side, listen to what you want to say without complaining or feeling annoyed, someone that will not hurt you or someone that will protect you from getting hurt? If this is what we called best friend, sadly to say that I don't even have one. I used to think that I have a brunch of 'sister' and i was so naive to believe that our friendship will last even if we won't able to meet each other that often. Tried to hold on the friendship but nobody even want to bother about it, I gave up.

The ugliest fact that I've seen was people will only consider you as best friend when they want something on you or maybe i should say you are someone who can give them advantages. I've realise that peoples around me are getting more and more realistic, talk to me only when they need me and when I need them they don't even bother to give a fuck. No matter where you are, hyprocrites are all around the world. It's up to you to want to put in trust or not, but as for me I've taken a lesson. I chose not to trust anymore. To be honest, I do not think that I'm pathetic or whatsoever without having all these people in my life. On the other hand, I felt grateful for letting me know this UGLY fact earlier so I can start protecting myself from being hurt. I'm sorry that I will not change myself to suit anyone, accept me for who I am or stay away from me. I'd realise nothing is more important than loving myself.

. To those who were once my close friends *you-know-who-you-are*,

you may stop acting and get out of my life now.

Thank you so much and goodbye! :)

A million thank you for making me who am I today.

才发现原来我比想像中坚强 :)

Appreciate what you have

2011-05-22T07:55:00.000-07:00

It's 17th of May and we were seated on number 17 table :) Such a coincidence. Woke up at 4.30 early in the morning and start our journey to Port Dickson . It's been awhile since we last been to club, since it's holiday we've decided to spend our holiday at the beach together with the kids. Fyi, the club i went was Royal Port Dickson Yacht Club :)

We were so excited when we saw the beach, even Charmaine's cannot wait to get in the beach. Something funny happened as she stepped on the sand. This soon to be 3 years old kid said the beach is super dirty and refused to walk on the beach. It's really funny that even a 3 years old kid can tell that the beach is dirty yet we still dip our body in this well known as polluted beach.

Charmaine & yours truly.

I personally think that we both look kinda alike in this picture.

Charmaine's is super adorable.

She posed in this picture, don't you just love her?

I think I fell in love with this small girl.

Charlton chose to build sandcastle because he dare not to swim in the sea.

He hide 20 cents inside the sand and wondering that if someone happen to find it and that person will keep digging the sand thought there will be treasure. He has many ideas on how to trick people, small boy watch too much Mr.Bean!

Polaroid picture ;)

Yuki Lan :)

Momma, che che and me.

We met the kids again at the night.

Celebrated Charlton's six years old birthday @One World Hotel

Had buffet dinner and it's really a waste of money to bring me there. If you know me well, you know I don't eat much. Oh wait, I can't eat much. The only thing that catch my attention was the huge chocolate fondue. I had so much of chocolate and feeling so content :)

Lastly, a picture of myself with the birthday boy.

It all happened too fast

2011-04-26T11:57:00.000-07:00

*don't you think we look cute? :)

It's 2.11 am now. Since I am not tired tonight, I'll just do a quick update alright? :) Seriously I do not know why people still bother to read my blog, it's been months since my last update. Sorry for let you all down, especially my loyal readers * only if I have one* I guess I'll ended up saving this in my draft again if I continue typing nonsense. So, my practical service class has officially ended! What a relieve! It then made me realize how fast time passed, I can still remember clearly for all the fun we had in kitchen & service class. Dealing with different people, getting to know each other a little bit more, then started to mix around and make fun of each other. It made me feel like it just happened yesterday. I think I'll start missing Ms.Gan non stop callng my name in the kitchen and Mr.Eddie never ending nagging :) Anyhow, I had so much fun with each and everyone in Group C. Thank you all so much for all the memories :)

From left to right

Emylia, the expert in cooking soup

Casandra, the Chef

Jessica, the Barker

Nicole, the bread roll maker

Group C

As I finished this post, it's about 3am already. And I am having class at 9am tomorrow, I should really go offline and sleep now. Goodnight :) I promise I'll blog more often. Till then

First day of February

2011-02-01T19:04:00.000-08:00

I've got a batch full of pictures and updates stored in my drafts that have yet to be published. Everyone has gone home for reunion dinner.Chinese New Year's in less than 24 hours and I'm still not in Chinese New Year mood yet. When I was a kid, I used to like Chinese New Year very much &got excited because we're travelling back to hometown. But now, I'd rather spend my time rotting at home doing nothing but not spending my 3 hours in travelling back to hometown. Getting Chinese New Year clothes just sounds like an excuses for me to shop. Sigh :'( Alright, I should stop myself from being so emotional lately.
Not able to see baby for a week time seriously can kill, I miss you so so so much! D:

Here goes some picture taken in Dec 2010, I didn't upload it to Facebook. See, I only show it to my readers. Love me more kayy? :P

TIll then ;
Happy Chinese New Year everyone!

2010-12-08T06:43:00.000-08:00

when i was younger, I used to think angels were literally, winged creatures who wore sparkly gowns and pranced 'round with halo's on their head. I used to think i'd never really be able to see one in real life unless i was falling off a cliff & God had decided it was not yet my time to die.Then, he would send one of his wonderful creatures to come rescue me.

Over the years though, i realized that God sends angels in the form of people, also.He send angels in the form of people who send you encouraging texts at the exact moment that you need them.He send you angels through a person who understands exactly what you mean, when you have no clue what you're talking about, when they get exactly what a 'you know what i mean? :/', means and do not criticize or judge you for it. He sends you angels through a person related to you who's stronger, and that encourages you each time to press on if not for yourself, for her at least.

Thank you for sending me her, a person who bothered to read something close to my heart.

evilangel :)

Happy thanksgiving :)

2010-11-26T06:12:00.000-08:00

你就是唯一，我唯一爱的就是你

Thank you for being there, I can nearly say 24/7 wiping the tears and holding back the hands I know I am extremely comfortable with, because I'm able to laugh, cry and not have to pretend around ♥

You are better than the best

2010-11-26T05:49:00.000-08:00

Hello readers (:*

Guess what, I took part in netball competition in college. It was my first time & we got champion! :D Fyi, I am the goal shooter. Right after the netball match, went Victoria Station celebrated mummy birthday. Mummy refused to take picture so we did not have a picture together. But if you don't mind, I will still upload a picture of mine :)

Celebrated my 18th birthday @ Genting with a brunch of love. Thank you guys so much for put in effort in giving me surprise & all the presents from you all.Thank you much much *hearts. And for the special one, I love you. I wish we could celebrate our birthday together for the next 99 years (:

I've got you in my life, the best thing I can ever had.

Hold on tight & never let you go

2010-11-14T10:42:00.000-08:00

Guten Abend *:]

*I've used up all my brain juice for tourism geography assignments.

Promise you I will be back tomorrow (:*

2010-11-07T08:06:00.000-08:00

我比从前快乐，谢谢你 ♥

当我想哭的时候，在你面前我可以哭得像小孩

不必隐瞒自己的情绪因为你一定会在我身旁给我安慰

2010-11-04T05:26:00.000-07:00

Hello Earthlings *:]

I gave my drinking virgin to college mates. We went drinking @ The Beer Factory at Sunway Giza on Halloween eve. My face turned red and started to laugh like nobody's business after drink a cup of champange, trust me I suck in drinking.

A picture of us with KDU uniform

You got no idea how much I love college now. I know I have been saying how much I hate going college in the past few months, I truly apologize for that. I realize that you will have different friends in different stage of your life. People comes people goes. I'm very content with my life now, thank you :)

2010-10-30T23:42:00.000-07:00

At this moment, I hope mummy happen to read my blog.

I want this so badly.

I think I'm in love with a two years old kid

2010-10-29T06:09:00.000-07:00

Now tell me she is the cutest thing you've seen.

Suet and I miss the kids very much, so we drove all the way to Kepong to have lunch with them. Trust me, this isn't a easy girl to get a hold of. She takes time to get close with people but I really got no idea how Suet's did that. Even the naughtiest boy in the world- Charlton Lan approach her. We had our lunch at Nasi Lemak Village with 3 kids. 3 kids for both of us to handle, which then got me to thinking again, that having a baby isn't that easy. You have to clean up and wipe up and entertain them so they don't cry,when they get older there's all the discipline and teenage stuff which also involves their wanting for money, 75% of time? However though, I think babies are pretty amazing creatures. Carry Nana and when I held her hand it was smaller than the size of my palm. It is really amazing how little things grow and change in time.

Look at the Charmaine , she can pose better than me.

Suet's favorite kid, Nana.

2010-10-25T16:10:00.000-07:00

The sky outside is half grey half cloudy half white- mixed up basically, I have had an incredibly insane sleep pattern the last few weeks which probably in contributing to how my brain feels so totally dead. Put into simpler, and less words- I'm feeling very zombie. Final in 4 weeks time, assignments due date less than 2 weeks time. I better start 'em now, I hate doing last minutes work. Trust me, it killed :/

I'm in rush now. Should prepare myself for college instead of blogging. I will be back soon *heart*

I miss you, you, you, you, you, you,you and you.

*pointing the picture below*

2010-10-24T10:22:00.000-07:00

I promise I will do a proper update tomorrow :]

I got a hair cut,

2010-10-02T07:28:00.000-07:00

From fringe . . .

to bangs

What do you think? (:

It's has been a month since the last blog post and I'm really sorry for not updating as often as I can. I'm really happy when I see this * pointing the picture below*

Big waves to readers from Australia & United Kingdom and not forgetting Malaysia :)

Anyhow, thank you all for not giving up on me :)

College work is killing me inch by inch. I just done my English presentation on Monday, trust me I did it badly. Talking in front of the class is really not my thing. I really hope we won't have any presentation in the coming semester. Talking about assignments, I sacrificed my sleeping time to complete my Geography assignment. Big thanks to Jvn Yi who actually helped out a lot ! :)

Je taime

2010-08-31T05:40:00.000-07:00

Hello, reader you probably aren't going to answer me when I ask you this but out of courtesy I shall anyway. Have you been okay? *Note: Would be nice if you reply :)

I received a note from someone I love today. It's my first time receiving special note like this, it looks simple but it means a lot to me. Nah, i'm not going to keep it under my pillow, Don't worry (: Thank you so much ben dan!

Edited

30 Minutes later . . .

I think sometimes, even when you don't feel Fearless, you have to try to psych yourself to say that you might be, just a little. It never works at that instant, it kind of makes you feel like you're uttering a completely useless word at times even 'cause in reality saying 'fearless' will never really cure anything, it's not a magical word.

But I am going to end it with a smileyface

Because I know I will always have you with me
:) Ich liebe dich

Because I care

2010-08-30T09:18:00.000-07:00

Love watches her mouth and takes a second to think through what she wants to fire out,when she is annoyed and angry. Love does not only want what is best for oneself, it takes other's interest into consideration because she wants only the best for that someone,even if it is not what she is destined to have.

Love does not envy,you know?

2010-08-28T09:24:00.000-07:00

How do i tell you, that inside, i am really not okay.
I am sorry.

I Don't Want To Miss A Thing - Yuna Ito (Cover from Aerosmith)

2010-08-26T08:58:00.000-07:00

2010-08-25T09:52:00.000-07:00

I miss you darling.

I wish you were here with me. I miss lying on your shoulder watching you sleep & seeing you get annoyed when i try to wake you up. Darling, I have so much to share. Could you please come kdu study with me? ):

2010-08-24T07:10:00.000-07:00

My eyes might now be infected due to the swelling, it is so itchy. I dont want to go college with swollen eyes )':

请你珍惜现在所拥有的一切，

2010-08-24T01:53:00.000-07:00

因为生命不能重来；更没有第二次

有人说，人去世后会变成天上的星星
我想今晚我看到最灿烂的那颗星星，一定是你
Evelyn, 谢谢你曾出现在我的生命里
很高兴能遇见你，能做朋友是缘分。
可惜这场缘分太薄，走得太快。
如果能有下辈子，我希望我们还会是朋友
愿你一路走好，我会很想念你。请你在另一个世界要开心 :)

给活着的各位，

请感谢今天你能活着
请感谢你身边让你快乐的每一位
请感谢缘分让你们遇见对方
请感谢你的父母为你付出的一切
请感谢你能拥有的一切，珍惜生命

The hardest thing to do is say Bye Bye.

2010-08-23T08:41:00.000-07:00

I dont really know what is the definition of Hope is, nor do I know what am I actually hoping for right now. But what I do think is that that little bit of what I do know, is the only thing that is keeping me going now. That tiny little bit which seems somewhat prettier than the current.

I do not hate you, how could I? I have just become so numb, after what happened.I do not, not want to talk. I just don't know how to anymore..When I say "Leave me alone.", it is very much like how an alcoholic might say- I do not need help. Asking for help, is always one of the hardest things one will have to do in life. And right now, I feel like living proof. I feel, like shi*. Inside and out.Ugly, useless, huge, wretched. This smile is beginning to look so plastic, beginning to get old, and I question more and more each time how much genuine happiness it really holds. What the heck, is wrong with me.

- Meet Teong Suet Ping ,

Love you muchmuch (;

Why did this have, does this have, to be so confusing :(

2010-08-22T01:28:00.000-07:00

reminding yourself is the easy part
believing it is hard .

2010-08-22T01:01:00.000-07:00

说了不哭但眼泪不听话
我以为我够坚强我以为我能坚强
为什么当我开始接受你们你们却要把我推开
对不起，我没有争，更没想过要抢
如果让你觉得你的朋友被抢了，我很抱歉
I've decided to quit because I cant take being hurt.

imagine there's no heaven

2010-08-01T06:01:00.000-07:00

; it's easy if you try.

Hello? Are you, still there?

Anywho, i apologize again for the lack of recent updates. I have come to the conclusion that it's either my brain has lost it's sense of randomity, or I am just not being able to use my time wisely. I think it's more of the second though.

Picture taken @desa park city, kepong.

I'm glad to know each of you :) I really dont mind spending my time with you guys. Ever since my college started, I'd forgot how to laugh. You guys can just make me laugh easily. Thank you so much! (;

I can't act like I never knew you

2010-07-20T07:28:00.000-07:00

Guten Abend ! (:

Ich heise Cassandra Chuah Kah Ee. Ich komme aus Malaysia. I'm stuck with my assignment so I decided to spend some time on my blog.I know my blog is dead, but I have tons of assignment has yet to be complete.I have German class on every Tuesday & Wednesday. I love German class. Although it's tough for me, but still I enjoy learning new language.

I love Fala Chen !

We'll never be the same

2010-07-15T03:50:00.000-07:00

How many afford I have to put in to let you go completely?
Hello :)

It's been awhile since properly updating.The internet is very unfortunately, down. We've been calling the Tm net phoneline people but our efforts have been to absolutely no avail. Which leaves me sitting here right now,facing Uncle's desktop where i stumble on clicking the wrong letters every so often because I'm not used to this keypad.

My class has officially started on Monday. New people, new situations and new experiences. Scared, Exhausted, Confused and Frustrated. It makes me miss high school so much. Scrolling down the long list of picture was,very nice. Not arranged in date, event or place everything was mixed up. Different looks, different emotions, different people. All bonded together in a file labelled- Memories. I guess, time will keep passing, pictures will keep coming and memories will continue building. Good, or Bad. I know it's time to grow, to suit myself in the new environment.

Too much for today, I think I should stop here. Till then (:

2010-07-06T05:14:00.000-07:00

Bonjour! :)

I'm chilling @chillex , puchong!

Everyone is so concern about my college life, thank you all so much! I understand why people dislike college life, I think I'm one of 'em already.I missed my girls , a lot ):

My cabonera is here, dinner time .

That's all for today, till then.

2010-06-26T07:34:00.000-07:00

Learning to forget doesn't seem to make much sense.

But I'm happy, seeing what I saw.

Thank you so much for what you've taught me all this while.
I'm no longer a small girl, I dont believe in fairytale anymore.

);

2010-05-17T10:33:00.000-07:00

Pictures,

like,

these,

make me ,

miss high school so much ):

I'd wish this moment was ours to own it

2010-04-26T10:15:00.000-07:00

*picture taken at genting by Cass*

站在十字路口上慌乱了脚步
隐忍着悲伤却不能哭泣
我用沉默包庇了自己的痛苦
静静的放掉这一切
不属于你我的回忆

不想再这样下去
我选择退出
我想
这场缘分太薄了

Desperado

2010-04-06T10:45:00.000-07:00

"You better let somebody to love you before it's too late"

Spongebob square pants

2010-04-01T12:24:00.001-07:00

Happy Turning 20th Ji Mui! ;)

Hope you'll like the handmade card from me.

All the best!

Better.Harder. Never

2010-04-01T07:51:00.000-07:00

It's raining out right now, the sky is grey,thunder is roaring and flashes of lightning keep me glancing out the window every once in a while. I'm hoping it stops soon. It,must :/

I just log in my nuffnag and found this, dint know I have readers from Indonesia. I'm sorry for the lack of update, I promise will update more often aite. Don't give up on me! So, it shown that I have readers from Australia too. Big waves to Alex! (: You request a post of ya, so yeah. May you have fun in the eversobeautiful Sydney. I realised how fast two months has already nearly passed. And I haven't been seeing you for about two months ;( I miss talking with you, so please talk to me more often when you see me online (: All the best for you coming mid term, Best of luck!

By the way, I would just like to say I'm actually very content the way my status is, and I'm no rush in finding a partner now. There are times when you see people holding hands and you melt but I guess, rushing into a relationship isn't going to be determine happiness. So yes, when the right guy comes along, then we'll just see how it goes.

Red eyes infection, Fever, Running Nose. What's next? ;(

Okay, I think I'm done.

And still single but it's okay because I think I'm happy this way, for now.

Have a great week everyone ;)

A little bit of a lot

2010-03-09T09:15:00.000-08:00

The hair is braidable,

I know I haven't been updating, but I realised I really don't have that much to say lately. It's either there's too much stuff in my brain that is doesn't come out the way I want it to. I've been talking to myself in head alot lately. And the weirdest thing is that I don't know about what. But I have been going to bed with the weirdest of dreams,some scary,some interesting but all under the category of psycho.

I need a new blogskin, can anyone help me with this? Sue Ann, I hope you are reading this because I likeyy your blogskin very much & I'm hinting you! :)

Take it , or leave it?

2010-03-01T11:07:00.000-08:00

It's about 4am and I can hardly fall asleep.
I guess everyone misses me very much, especially sze han& the gang.
Just in case you all forgot my face, I've decided to camwhore a bit for you guys ;)
Okay, it's just an excuse for me to cover my perasan-ness. I admit.

Just got my hair cut today and I think I look retard with it.

Meet my friend, Aaron Tan Khei Jern! ;) Don't you love this picture too? I love love love this! I'm learning to live, with everything you've taught me. I might not be tough all the time, but I know I always have you all by my side. Thank you so much my one and only LCD face ji mui & not forgetting Yinn Jye & Jvn Yi & HengDai ku :)

I miss you, you know. And how do you stay so, strong really?

Nothing happens without a reason

2010-02-27T12:25:00.000-08:00

They- whoever 'they' are, say when it rains- it pours.It poured today. A double dose of worry, guilt and confusion.Not knowing what went wrong, how it went wrong, or what I did to mess everything up.I can't exactly say my senses are in the best form now, my eyes are swollen and my tear ducts are cried out dry and besides my throat being sore, I sound like a toad. WTF.

i feel, numb.

yesterday.

2010-02-20T04:49:00.000-08:00

correct me if my observation is wrong

I thought you were my fairytale a dream when im not sleeping

2010-02-02T08:37:00.001-08:00

"A thousand miles seems pretty far,
But they've got planes and trains and cars,
I'd walk to you if I had no other way."

I guess I missed you too much.
I had another sweet dream about us again.
But I confused myself with the truth.
Why did i let myself believe miracles could happen cause now i have to pretend that i dont care.

Tell me what am i to you. ;(

te extrano

At 10 minutes,

2010-01-16T07:46:00.000-08:00

- till tomorrow.

I know, I would get rid of each little wrong line- if I knew what was wrong to begin with.

I know, I wish there was a highly contrasted summary, writeup, explanation on what is happening now. And maybe, a little clue on where it is all going.

At 5 minutes till tomorrow

- I am still so, so unsure bout so, so much. :(

I kind of miss, having less to think and worry about.

面對你的時候我不會舍不得因為你已是過客

想起你的时候我不是卑微的反而我沒有遺憾因為我已愛過你深深的

Because you dont understand

2010-01-05T10:25:00.000-08:00

It's the 6th day of year 2010.
It's my first time crying in year 2010, I broke my record. Didn't I?
I'm disappointed with all the words.
I shouldn't make myself so pathetic, Right?

Start of something new

2010-01-03T09:13:00.000-08:00

I realised, that without Blogger auto correcting my spelling mistakes, what I type out coming from my brain would sound uber gibberish. Because really, my spelling sarkss.

This year has honestly been one of the toughest years of my life and thankfully,I'm still here today to be writing this post. I guess it's been memories that won't be forgotten even when I'm old,wrinkled and sitting in a rocking chair. I yay everybody whose been supporting me this year especially Darlings (; Understanding someone isn't that easy but knowing you try or actually take things in instead of just hearing makes a big difference. Thank you for not judging, being patient and bearing the horrible jokes we find funny most of the time.

Where did I spent my last day of year 2009? Legend International Water Home @ Port Dickson. Environment here is uber cool, no doubt. It cost 2800 per night, I dont think is worth to stay here. Pictures say a thousand of words right? I'll just let picture do my talking.

Legend International Water Homes.

Two king size beds.

Believe me, this room can fit more than 20 person.

Kitchen. They even provide us microwave .

Swimming pool in our room. Damn chun right?

Charmaine's looks cute in this picture, click to enlarge :) Kindly ignore my face.

Aww, it's almost four now.

Good night ! ;)

Mid Late Morning

2009-12-22T10:37:00.000-08:00

Silence really hurts, especially when you think you've done something wrong yet don't know what it its.

When you know how exactly someone feels, yet don't know exactly why.

Weak, end.

2009-12-12T11:08:00.000-08:00

You remember when I said I don't believe in Forever?
Thank you, you just prove it to me.
And I'm hoping that you meant it when you say this to the next person.

I have nothing much left to say, my mind is kind of blank right now to be honest. But somehow- I sometimes think having a blank mind is a lot less tiring, stressful & brain cell killing that having a mind that over thinks.

For now, it's time to be mind blank. Doodle.

I've been spending all my time just thinking about you

2009-12-02T22:03:00.001-08:00

I dreamt of you 2 days continuously.

I guess I miss you too much.

Ouch, that's hurt );

To my beloved qin ai de

2009-11-21T00:43:00.000-08:00

Yuuhoo! (; I guess you all know whose big day today.

It's Isabelle.Cutie.Nia Ma. aka my Qin ai de Big day.She's officially Seventeen now, finally.

I guess I dont have to talk much. If you're a loyal reader of mine,you'll know how much i love her & how much she loves me :)

Picture taken on Christmas eve.

I remember we used to address each other as Qin Ai De (亲爱的) when we're form3.
As you mention in your blog, we came out with alot of funny nicknames.Cutie, Nia Ma, Didi's club, do you still remember all these? I'm glad to have you with me in my high school life. If you're close friend of her i bet you know how vain she is, she camwhore everywhere. Fyi, she's not a introvert or quiet girl, No! But still I love her very very much.

Camwhore at daphne's crib

I miss all the retard, bimbo moment we've spent together. Remember 4 of us used to sit together & talk every period and kena blue card? Ohmygod, I'm missing our form4 & form5's life. Thank you for being there whenever I need a person to talk with, thanks for being so kind & listen to my repeat & repeat talk. I love you Y

Remember this? My ohsodramatic day!

My favourite picturee !

Ou xing fu wan shui day (;

On graduation day, big big kiss from cass to belle!

Time, will you just stop?

2009-11-07T06:10:00.000-08:00

I'm going to miss my high school life.

Bittersweetly, I think I really am.

I've got alot in my mind now, too much to say.

I'll just do a proper update after the ohsoannoying SPM (:

You wont know how much I miss going school now.

I miss those days we spent together.

2009-08-13T00:11:00.000-07:00

I actually woke up on time today, I heard my alarm ring and managed to respond instead of snoozing David Achuleta's sexy voice like I do unconsciously a lot of the time. I heard the sky rumble, heard the wind blowing and saw a cloudy morning sky. A few minutes later, it started to rain. And you know, how much I hate rain in the morning on a good day. The weather has been crazy lately, it's sunny one minute and then I hear thunder the next.

I dont do right things all the time,and you too,right? I'm sorry for not being understanding enough, but why cant you stand at my side and think for me? I tried to talk to you, but all you reply me was ignorance. You ignored every words i spoke to you, not even giving me a chance to explain. It's alright, I dont think it's important anymore. You'll never hear my explanation.

Happy belated 2 months anniversary.

I adore you Y

Try. Trying, Trying

2009-08-03T00:51:00.000-07:00

The countless number of days I have neglected this blog is shameful to myself in my opinion but thank you the coming exams and the stupid internet connection. Those two are my only reasonable excuses :) On a good day, I don't hear my alarm clock ring although I wake up half an hour before and I wake up slightly late. As usual, I'm a tad bit late for school. Fyi, I used to late to school thrice a week.

They say, perfection doesn't exist. It is equivalent to building castles in the sky, or dreaming fairytales in hopes when one wakes up, everything will be cotton candy and horses will fly. Impossible to achieve, yet strived by so many.

"What is, perfect to you."

2009-07-10T05:26:00.000-07:00

Make a game | Share | Free games | Pictogame

Have fun (;

2009-07-10T04:11:00.000-07:00

I was bored and had a look at my pictures.
And these are what I found.
So now you tell me whose eyes is bigger.
Isabelle or Mine ? (;

2009-07-02T07:53:00.000-07:00

My very first picture with abang Han (;
We look very cute, Right?

a date with tiffany candy teh

2009-06-27T05:02:00.001-07:00

It has been awhile since Tiff & I date.

Headed to mid valley after tuition today.

Surprisingly, 3 of us(belle,tiff & I)wear the same colour top.

Tiff's & I even wear the same shirt (:

I will just let the pictures do my talking.

Here you go ,

yours truly (:

Tiffany candy teh busy sms abang han

Serious face plus act cool face

Our ohsocool faces :D

Ignore, ignore my act cute face.

She's staring at me with her ohsobig eyes.

Damn scary lohh,nyahaha :D

Favourite picture of the day (;

2009-06-21T06:12:00.000-07:00

Watched hannah montana with Mr. Foo, Mr.Phang & Mrs.Phang, Mr.Hng & Mrs.Hng (;
First date with Mr.Foo.
It was simply awesome, right? (minus the incident happened)
The feeling is getting stronger, I'm very happy to be with you
Barbeque at the kid house right after the movie, it's fun to be with them.

Joke of the day, provided by Mr.Smith
How do you recognise an ah beng in school?
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
The one who erased his notes when teacher clean the board

I know you're laughing :D

A little bit of alot

2009-06-19T03:14:00.000-07:00

I'm not going to deny the fact anymore.

I gotta admit that we actually look alike.

Thanks alot vinc yuee! (;

Your msg is in my saved messages folder dy.

Next time please, please dont send me touching touching msg.

You know what will happend right?

I miss youu , patient ;(

I.Cant.Wait.To.See.You!

even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart

2009-06-12T06:11:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated Birthday Darlingg Joey! (:

I love you very much!

Watched 17 again with darlings.

I'm in love with Zac Efron now. He damn HOT woih!

Kim Gary after movie,

I just realize that we celebrated Joey birthday here for 2 years.

I hope you enjoy the birthday celebration darling (:

Thank you for the long long message you sent us, damnn touchingg.

I just wanna be with you

2009-06-08T07:31:00.000-07:00

You are special (;

without saying a word, you can light up the dark

2009-06-06T03:02:00.000-07:00

(. . . . . . . . .)

I.Dont.Know.How.To.Blog.Anymore );

I guess I quitted blogging for too long.

2009-05-24T04:31:00.000-07:00

第一次见面看你不太顺眼

谁知道后来关系那么密切

我们一个像夏天一个像秋天

这种能把冬天变成了春天

你从我离开已尝爱的风雪

我被你走出一次梦的断裂

遇见一个人然后生命在改变

原来故事恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信

朋友比情人还死心踏地

就算不忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰

依然不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定

朋友比情人更懂得亲近

我的弦外之音我的有口无心

我离不开Darling 更离不开你

你了解我所有的多余东西

才超过我论随意怕我忘形

你知道我所有的丢脸事情

却为我的美好形象保密

2009-05-23T06:15:00.000-07:00

ForgiveMyRandomity (:

笨得可以 (郭采潔）

聽你開心說著你的事情
我有一種莫名心跳反應
夜深人靜時候突然想到你
沒有原因沒有邏輯誰能說明

總是愛捉弄我尋我開心
從來沒有想過會喜歡你
也許愛情就是沒什麼道理
緣份來臨措手不及誰看得清

總以為我們是地球的南北兩極
直到分開旅行
我才明白有好多的話想說給你聽

是我笨得可以我們早就相遇
我說服我自己這一切只是友情
是你讓我相信兩顆心沒有距離
我才發現原來我愛著你

是我笨得可以沒看穿你的心
還以為這只是愛情無聊惡作劇
是我笨得可以我終於面對自己
勇敢證明我是真的愛~你

2009-05-23T05:38:00.000-07:00

You make me smile ; please stay for awhile

2009-05-23T05:10:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry for the late wishes.

But belated better than never lahh right? :D

So here goes my wishes,

29th of April

Happy Birthday Allyku Chang Choon Ming (:

The one who loves to call me in the middle of the night.
And dont let me go to bed cause he can't sleep.

But still he's a nice guy, nice ally, nice gossip partner ;)

Although we dont see each other very often, but I know I'm always in your heart.Hee!

All the best you yo! (;

20th of May

Happy Birthday Allyku Hng Ting Han(g)

Thank you for be by my side through my hard time.

Thank you for everything lahh kayy.

Although now we dont really talk to each other.

But still you're my ally. Like what you said to me the day before you graduate (;

23th of May

Happy Birthday Dai B Prez Kenny Chee Eng Kang

The one now struggling in NS (:

Thank you for helping me whenever i need help.

Best Prez Award :D

2009-05-17T02:29:00.000-07:00

How can you dont love them? (:

I miss you both alot );

2009-05-16T06:37:00.000-07:00

4th of May marked my darling- Daphne's Sweetie Ma Chi Pet Tian Wen Yu Tay Xin Tian's 17th Birthday!

I remember everything we've been through, thank you for be by my side all the time. I'm sorry for always release my anger on you, but I always find it comfortable to tell you everything. You'll never ignore me, never. Remember our first quarrel this year? We dont talk to each other and that doesn't make me feel good at all. We both cried after talking to each other. Thank you so much darling (: You know I love you right? And I know you love me too. Right?

Thank you for not being camera shy today (;

4 years and still counting <3

Daphne. Yee Tung

First one

Your favourite post of the day. No?

Scroll down & you'll know (;
Daphne. Tiffany

Second one

Same post again -.-

Joey. Daphne

Third one

Where's your finger this time? ;D

Look at Jhao act cute face, damn gay lahh you.

xiao hao. daphne

Long lost kawan :D

I just realised that we both wore white!

Remember last year all of us wear white shirt also?

(I look fat in this picure so you can just ignore my leg,

at least my face dint look that fat ); )

2009-05-08T07:18:00.000-07:00

Hellooo Earthlings (:

It has been exactly 3 weeks since my last updates.I'm here to blog about Tiff's & Daphne's 17th Birthday celebration.We all had fun right , darlings? (: Excuse me for the super duper belated wishes kayy (:

25th of April marked my darling- Tiffany Candy Xiao Qi Gui Wen Tian Yu Teh Ya Win aka Teh Ie Win's 17th birthday (:

As long as we're together, everything will be alright kayy? (: Big girl don't cry , stay happy darling. I gave my overnight virgin to you, and it really fun!I love your family members, especially your daddy. He's a nice great awesome daddy, appreciate everything kayy? Talking about surprise, don't you think is familiar?Learn that from you my dear, Invited guest ;)

you look great in that dress, serious(:

Isabelle. Belle. Nia Ma. Cutie

Cassandra. Sandra.Nia Seng. Pretty

Invited guest *Abang Han & Adik Win ;D

Mind you, the words on the cake written by Cassandra!

That's why it looks nice, but it taste suck. Eww

Adik Win blowing candles.

I just realised that you dint make any wish that day.

Aww, wasted wasted!

So sweeeeeeet!

I'll edit this tomorrow.
Files too big and it takes me more than 1 hour to upload all this. UGH

2009-04-24T18:17:00.000-07:00

Happy 17th Darling Tiffany's!

It's your big day today & we're going to celebrate later.

I hope you enjoy all the surprises we give you

It's the 3rd year we celebrating your birthday with you

And we know that they'll be more celebrating in the following years (:

I love love you <33's

Tuition time.
Will update again (:

2009-04-23T03:05:00.000-07:00

100th post and 100 things to do before I leave this earth

Okay I don't know what's going to happen in the next few years, months, days or hours. But I sure hope I at least complete half of the things on my list (:

So yes here it goes. May everyone be then inspired to come up with their own list because really, we all only get to live that long. And do read if you've time because i think it'll be quite longg ;)

100 things to do before I die

Travel abroad with darlings
Swim with dolphins
Star in a photoshoot *-I know I'm fat but I can dream lahh okayy
Watch Kaka plays football
Build a snowman
Have a snowball fight
Watch a pretty sunset on the beach
Ride in a hot air balloon
Star in something BIG *-I'm not attention seeker okayy
Ride on a donkey (;
Climb a mountain
Run a marathon
Ride a horse in a huge cherry field
Read and complete a thick book
Climb a tree
Flip a roti canai
Throw a coin after making a wish into the fountain in Rome
Go on a picnic with darlings
Finish a puzzle
Have a pillow fight
Have a candle light dinner date
Ice skate on a frozen pond -*and pray that the ice doesn't break
Sing 'Bubbly' on the stage with Colbie (:
Find a four leaf clover
Slow dance on a balcony, with my loved one of course -*You know in 'A Walk to Remember'? I think what the guy did for the girl was so sweet.
Get interviewed and appear on TV
Work as a waitress
Design a dress and show it on a fashion show
Bake a wedding cake
Watch a scary movie
Paint a huge butterfly on my wall
Fly a kite
Ride on a roller-coaster
Get my driving license
Spend more time with family
Study harder *cough*
Go jungle trekking
Confess to someone I love
Play paintball
Jump in a balloon castle
Fly on the sky
Slide down a fireman's pole
Drink 8 cups of water per day
Get magic-fied by a magician (:
Learn how to use chopstick
Eat with hands, like what Malay do
Cook a meal for my mom
Savour a rainbow
Go on a mission trip
Shout on the road in the middle of night
Go snorkeling
Race with a cow :D
Shave my head for a good cause
Receive a brunch of red roses (:
hug a bear
Sit on a banana boat
Have a Daddy-Daughter dance when/ if I do get married
Get married
Settle down and have kids
Date an ANGMOH
Eat some fishes
Go fishing
Braid my hair
Hide my sister driving license -*So that she cant drive out whenever she likes, evil (;
Disturb the guards outside Buckingham Palace -*I was told that they are not allow to move. Wont that be fun? (: Grins
Change a car tyres
Adopt a child
Feed a kangaroo
Ride on a Giraffe
Trick a stranger on April Fool
Ride a jet ski
Appreciate everything in my life.
Hide my dog inside my luggage
Be a bridesmaid
Go sledging in a snow
Run in a sunflowers field
Touch a lion / tiger
Try on funny costume during Halloween
Ride an elephant in the middle of the jungle
Build a sand castle -* Which is same height as me
Touch the cloud
Get bitten by a leech -*I just wonder does it hurt me lahh okayy
Sound a fire alarm
Own a shopping complex which open 24hours
Chase a bus
Jump on a pogo stick
Study at Manchester University
Attempt pottery
Climb a high ladder
Go paragliding.
Be more punctual
Drive an open roof car
Visit the colourful palace in Moscow
Talk to baby & understand what they're trying to tell
Sleep without closing my eyes
Jump off a cliff -*and I don't mean suicide
Write with both hands in the same time
Meet a vampire boyf
Run faster than Cheetah ;D
Finish the 100things to do before I die

Now I better get started (:

Jom darlings, let's go travel noww!

2009-04-21T04:38:00.000-07:00

What happens if I can't be all that tough,

what happens if that's just not me?

22th April 2009

2009-04-20T06:58:00.000-07:00

Happy 27th Birthday Kaka !

He's a Brazilian footballer & Brazilian superstar, he's the footballer that I love love love the most. Although he's a bit old to some people, but for me he's always young & Awesome!

how can you don't love him?

2009-04-19T07:22:00.000-07:00

After all, she's still the same.

You got yourself a very chun name, very chun indeed.

Even better than mine hell a lot as you think.

It dont suit you anyway :D

I'm a lucky lucky girl

Who got everything that you dont have

Dont be jealous (:

You still have your sucky attitude with you

I love love love Tiff

Tiff love love love me too! (;

If you could pick happy from trees

2009-04-18T04:35:00.000-07:00

Hello Y

me, innocent face (; Tiff's wants to act innocent but failed. Ended up with this praying face ;D

Thanks alot darlings, without you girls I wont be able to stay strong.
Thanks Patient for telling me jokes when I'm not happy, thanks for always be by my side. Congratulation yo! Proud of youu (:
Thanks Aaron the one and only best-est squarest funniest dearest ji mui (:
I'm happy happy today. Believe it or not, the so called 'kumpulan terpengaruh' attended Hari Anugerah Cemerlang today. Benjamin Dickson(xiao ji ji) you are sucha bad boy. Tsk tsk! Hang out with darlings right after the ceremony. Tiff's got herself a new camera, I can't remember what model it is but the function rock lahh! Much better than mine, sob sob ;( I'm officially broke now. Okayy.I think I'm pretty much done here.I'm going to stay away from the computer for a while. Toodles!

2009-04-12T01:23:00.000-07:00

Friday. 10th April 09'
It's Good Friday and it rained. Woke up at 6 something early in the morning. Meet Daphne at lrt station cause 3 of us are going to work at Pertama Complex. We dint know the way to Pertama Complex, keep asking people around us where the place is and how to get there. We reached the mall about 9 and we're supposed to meet our agent at 10. An hour earlier (; As we meet our agent she start briefing us what should we do. " Excuse me Sir/Miss, Maxis broadband. We're doing promotion now, rm88 per month. If you're credit card holder, is just rm78. " I've been saying this for 987654321 time in a day. My legs hurt, really hurt ;( Thanks my one & only bestest ji mui for the cupcakes & plaster (;

Saturday. 11th April 09'
Spend my day with Tiffany the retard & my ohsocool uncle. Fyi, he's only 23 this year. Young eyh? Had been to pc fair, wanna get a better anti-virus software. But ended up with nothing, but still I enjoyed my day with them (; Ooh I realize that Tiff is always the one who go pc fair with me, forever my pc fair kaki (; I'm sorry Tiff, for making you waited me for almost an hour. Tiff,
don't put the blame on yourself kayy? I'm alright (: I dont control my temper well sometimes, but at least I tried my best to. How about you my dear? Your words hurt me, you know?

Pictures will be up soon (; Toodles!

Immune

2009-04-08T06:29:00.000-07:00

How come it's not fair, at all? ;(
I felt a tear form and looked up, wiped it away like I would when I had just yawned. The difference was that yawning doesn't hurt your throat. Why aren't you there when I need you? More tears, more dissapointment.I don't feel strong, at all really ;( How come I dont know what I'm feeling at all, but know I dont like everything now. Dont ask, dont assume, pleaseeee.

Thanks Crystal for the skin.
I love love love it, but I love you more (:

Raining

2009-03-28T01:26:00.000-07:00

Silence can sometimes mean so much. I'd choose not fight back, because I know the consequence. I'd choose not to compare myself to her,because I know it will make me feel even worse.I'm happy, not. Ignorance is bliss right tiffany? (;

Saturday.

Tuition at Daphne's house, as usual.
Camwhored with Belle & Tiff before class start. * Belle the super ss queen*
Tiff's mom drove us to Timesquare. Too bad tiff couldn't join us ):
Back to shopaholic life, bought alot of things. Which mean I'm broke now.
I love love love my 'cow boy' shirt (; Belle love it too, right?
Mom confiscated my atm card when I'm home. Means I'M VERY VERY VERY POOR NOW!

Till then. loves!

2009-03-26T07:28:00.001-07:00

Had been to gardens red box for Tung's 17th birthday

celebration during the past school holiday.

Kenny CBK joined us too!

I'll just let pictures do my talking ,

Birthday girl (:

Miss Chan Yee Tung

The birthday girl & daphne the camera shy (;

For your information, daphne dont take picture.

She cover her face in every picture, dont believe?

Scroll down & you'll know

Dai B prez aka Kenny Cbk & Daphne.

See, Daphne cover her face again.

Dai B Club Picture .

Dai B members. Dai B pose (;

But still I love all of you very much

*p/s : Daphne try to hide her face*

Kenny forced us to do this pose.

Since he's leaving for ns the next day,

So we did that just for him.

Serious one.

I'm so so so cute right ? Heh

Darlings <33's

Finally daphne dint cover her face (;

2009-03-25T04:43:00.001-07:00

Urgh. I now need to go take a shower with ice cubes.
My ohsohot brain is going to explode.
Thanks for making my day ohsowonderful.

2009-03-24T07:08:00.000-07:00

2009-03-21T07:20:00.000-07:00

當你離開的時候

詞：蔡健雅　作曲：蔡健雅
我只能低著頭發呆　讓回憶滲透腦袋　漸漸變空白
我把它當作個意外　但內心還想不開　以為我明白
其實你都還在

我想起了你給我的感動　想起我們之間的溫柔
想起了我們第一次牽手　我閉上眼
想起當時你許下的承諾　把你整個心都交給我
然而到後來我什麼都沒有　當你離開的時候

我可以裝作已釋懷　他對我也算關懷　他看不出來
我知道這樣不應該　在他身上找依賴　算不算是種出賣
因為你一直在

我想起了你給我的感動　想起我們之間的溫柔
想起了我們第一次牽手　我閉上眼
想起當時你許下的承諾　把你整個心都交給我
然而到後來我什麼都沒有　當你離開的時候

我想起了你給我的感動　想起我們之間的溫柔
想起了我們第一次牽手　我閉上眼
想起當時你許下的承諾　把你整個心都交給我
然而到後來我什麼都沒有　越是沒有你　越是心痛

我想起了遇見你的時候　想起你眼神中的溫柔
想起了我們第一次牽手　我閉上眼
想起當時你懷裡的顫抖　似乎那麼害怕失去我
然而到後來我什麼都沒有　當你離開的時候

2009-03-18T06:43:00.000-07:00

Pictures are all gone.

I'm sad ;(

2009-03-15T23:52:00.000-07:00

100 Truths. Tagged by Candy (:

001. Real name → Chuah Kah Ee
002. Nickname(s)→Snail, Pretty, vegetable plus fish
003. Zodiac sign → Scorpio
005. Male or female → Female
006. Elementary → Jing Ying Kindergarten/CEC Kindergarten
007. Middle School →SJKC Chen Moh
008. High School → Catholic High School
009. College School → wondering..
010. Hair color → Black
011. Long or short → Long
012. Loud or Quiet → Loud .Obviously
013. Sweats or Jeans →Sweats
014. Phone or Camera → Phone
015. Health freak → Dont think so
016. Drink or Smoke? → Non of it
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → Not sure
055. Waiting for → Hang out with all my beloved

FUTURE:
058. Want kids?→ Sure (;
059. Want to get married? → Sure
060. Careers in mind →Psychologist/ Lawyer/ Accountant

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes. Beautiful eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous →Romantic
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms
074. Sensitive or loud→ Not both :/
075. Hook-up or relationship →Relatioship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant →No both :/

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → Yes
081. Ran away from home → No
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense →No
083. Killed somebody →No
084. Broken someone's heart → Think so
085. Been arrested → No
087. Cried when someone died → Sure

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Hardly
090. Miracles →Yes
091. Love at first sight → Depends
092. Heaven →Yes
093. Santa Claus →Yes
094 Tooth Fairy→No
095. Kiss on the first date→ Depends

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now →perhaps
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → abandon this*
099. Do you believe in God →Yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.

I tag (aa)ron(x5) , Kean (x5) (:

2009-03-14T08:45:00.000-07:00

Random conversations

Late night conversations

i love this the most (; *

Thank you for waste your time on doing these with me.

We shall try something harder next time (;

Sketch a picture of our dream car.

p/s : Be professional together.

2009-03-14T07:33:00.001-07:00

I thank you for all the roses you've given me God, but all this while,

I've never thanked you for giving me the thorns to start with.

2009-03-13T02:00:00.001-07:00

YuuuHoooo everyone :)

CUTIE was here!!! *winks* I'm here to upload the pictures without captions!
Enjoy yourjiaooof! Tata.

Edited.
By Pretty (:

chua partner. suelyann. cutie (:

Crystal & Cutie (:

Hou yan (;

no comment -.-

Candid, I swear

I love love love this!

Sweetie the camera shy :D

I love cutie

I love Sweetie, too.

they complain that I'm too tall ;D

Dont jealous lahh kayy (;

Cutie & Chua Partner like this

You jump ; I jump *heh

I love chua partner, too <3

Little By Little Bits

2009-03-05T02:02:00.000-08:00

I apologize, for the lack of recent updates. A few days back, I attended seminars at Sunway College with cutie & sweetie. Nice talking to my long lost kawan- Crystal & Huey In. It's been quite a long time since our last talk. I had lots fun with you girls. Heh (: Pictures will be up when it all done, promiseee ;D

I have exam next Tuesday and I am not ready, at all ): Screamsssss! Off to The Garden for dinner. I'll not update that often, cause as you know the exam is just around the corner. I'm so gonna work hard, put more effort this time. If you know me well, you'll know that I very kia su.

你要離開我知很簡單
你說依賴是我們的阻礙
就算放開但能不能別沒收我的愛
當做我最後才明白

2009-03-01T11:48:00.000-08:00

Smile, when life falls .

I think, my brain is actually quite weighed down with alot of stuff right now.
I don't think, I actually know.
I just don't know where to begin and what to say.
Urghh, I don't do stress too well, wait I don't do stress well at all.
I'm tired, exhausted, nearly worn-out
Because I don't know how much longer I can handle all this.
I've got alot in my mind now, and I don't know how to say it all.
And it hurts, it really hurts ):

Quote of the day,
Don't simply assume me .
by, Cutie Tan

The language of friendship is not words but meanings

2009-02-27T05:15:00.000-08:00

Tan Meng Yah had finally shut her big mouth up.We played badminton today. Yes, included me. Dont be too surprise, I do exercise.(sometimes) Photo session for class page right after school. As what cutie said, sort of sucks. Headed to Mid Valley for movie with darlings & Cutie. Meet Robin's there, thought we can follow him in. (for your information the movie we wanted to watch is 18pl)Who knows there's this bastard named KELVIN / KEVIN dont let us in & brought us to the counter. I'm not in the mood to details what had happened. It ruined my mood. Another screwed up day has passed.

P/s: Picture can't be upload again, will upload when it's uploadable.

The word lie lies between the word believe

2009-02-26T04:19:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry
you know I never wanted to hurt you.

2009-02-16T03:37:00.000-08:00

幸福它總在前方

好像伸手就可以抓得住的夢想

往往卻讓自己跌得更悲傷

2009-02-12T22:56:00.000-08:00

Thank you my dear dear dear cutie for helping me upload this (;

I'll be your teddy, I'll be your clown

2009-02-10T02:51:00.000-08:00

I haven't died nor have I commited suicide. Missed me? I know you did, just admit (;
My computer has been a complete loser . And that has therefore unabled me to online the past few weeks. Chinese New year was great! Spent most of my time with my little cousins. They're really cute, just like Pretty.Sweety.Candy.Cutie (; I'm not going to details about CNY, I'll just let pictures do my talking :)

Last Saturday.
Tuition with Candy Sweety Cutie. Class supposed to start at 10 but due to some reason it start at 12. We spent 2 hours on online, camwhore, chit chat & our oral script. I had lots fun with Didi's & the tomato look alike teacher (; I wont call you square face anymore cause you're more like a tomato. Heh. Candy's daddy fetch me back to school after tuition, he's friendly as usual. Dinner at Serdang with the Ng's family. Guess who I saw? Ong Chang Meng! Ohh wait, I dint know he was there actually. Suddenly I heard someone calling my name, was looking around. And he's just standing right in front me. Frightened me woi! Both of us not staying there and we met there, how funny. He look mature, I nearly cant recognize that's the small boy OCM ;D hey, I'm praising you. Hee

Blogger is really annoying. Pictures can't be upload again.
I wonder whether it's blogger is really this annoying or I don't know how to upload pictures the correct way. Anyhow, I'll try to edit this post some other time.

陳秉媚真文雅的在吃著真新鮮的菜加魚
There's 4 names here, guess yourself (;

2009-01-15T04:50:00.000-08:00

It's Everything When It's Nothing

Darling, remember what i said after we took this picture?

"ehh! I look very nice here. Er, youu . . . xD"

( . . . )

She asked me to take a picture of her with the pink jingle belly.

And this is what I took ;D (without that pink colour thingy)

And she showed me her super uber dulan face.

My favourite picture (;

If you realize,

I'm always the one who hold the camera.

You know why?

Cause she got poor camwhore skill .

But still, iloveherverymuch (;